…an adult with growing pains…
Dear David Emmanuel,
I still play this & smile, thxox u D.E.S <3 really hope u find some1 to dedicate this song to again, I’m sorry it wasn’t me. I read your msgs n I know your reading this so I figured I’d suprise you and show you that yes boy I’ll blog about you! So don’t take it to heart if I didn’t respond on facebook. Don’t stress yourself thinking that I dont care cuz I’m not responding, actually I care enough not to respond. I’m not ignoring you, I just don’t know what to say I don’t have an answer. I’m not saying no, who knows what the future holds? If we are meant to be we’ll happen on our own. I loved you just as much, like a wise man once said “love something set it free”, you couldn’t see cuz you were blind by love but I had to set you free because I was holding you back
I’m always here so don’t you ever feel alone, and yes I meant it when I said you can always call me a friend even if I am your X. Your right when you said that we can go months without speaking and when we do call eachother it feels like a day hasn’t past, I never want that to change. I always want our friendship to feel like home, and No I haven’t moved on and forgotten about you. It’s not that I don’t miss you, I trully do and your not the only one it hurts. I just know the best thing for you right now is for me to stay away from you. I just hope you understand.
Don’t blame yourself it was never your fault you never did anything wrong. You did all the right things at the wrong time. I appreciate everything and I never took for granted the man you were to me. Thank you for loving me at my weakest, honestly I don’t know if I’d even be here right now writing this to you without you in my life at that time. You put together all the pieces everytime I’d self destruct. You saved me from myself, something not even god himself could have done.
Letting go was never because I didn’t care, it was because I loved you enough. There wasn’t anything different you could have done. I just want you to know you were never not good enough, it was that you deserved better.
Real Eyes, Realize, Real Lies…
How can I trust a man when I don’t even trust in God? Even a perfect man has imperfect love… Does he even exist? I’m talking about the one. Is my soul just searching for a myth? He’s a mystery that haunts and taunts my heart…. n blah blah blah
The biggest tragedy of all tragedies is that it takes a tragedy to unite us. World peace shouldn’t be something every beauty queen wishes for, and God shouldn’t be someone rock stars thank their grammy’s for. How has the idea of world peace and god turned into nothing more than a trending topic or a word that’s become a mere hashtag on twitter. Words without merit, meaning, or substance.
Our society took Trayvon Martins death and sacrificed his memory, a mockery that turned a young black mans life into an archetype. That hooded image branded into something that became marketable to the lost youth in America desperately needing something to fight for. So for that moment it became cool to stand up against the monster of a man George Zimmerman, who just as Trayvon became his own archetypal image, one of racism.
America hides its racism behind our president who is half African American. We have the first black president so racism must be dead, racism is just as alive as the days of Martin Luther King, in fact racism is even more dangerous now then the days of Mr. King because it is hidden within our society.
Where racism use to be out in the open, now its a lie lying dormant on the white house’s welcome mat. So what will it take to unify us, not just America but the world… Unify us regardless of our backgrounds, heritage, skin color, religion, gender, sexual preferences and so on, Unite our differences that make us unique.
There is a fine line between uniting our differences that make us individuals, and not conform into a little box we can complacently check when a survey asks us a question. The possibility of world peace is just as possible as aliens landing on earth, and if they did it would happen simultaneously. That day in history the newspapers will read, Aliens land on earth, finally world peace.
Instead of us fighting each other, even if they were no harm to us humans would then unite to fight the aliens. Its going to take aliens from out of this earth to bring peace on earth. My opinion which I will say is a fact. Once we have another species it will then be more easily able in our psyche to look past our differences and see us all as people.
People who have hate in their hearts will continue to, and those minute minds that are racist will continue on with their racism. Instead of hating black or white people they will now hate green or grey aliens. They will then focus their hate onto something else that they are alienated from, the irony being that aliens would make humans feel less alienated and be the dividend that ends all that divides and be the beginning of something that unites us.
All wars on earth would end, and a new war fighting something out of this world would start.
All this time in history where whites called black people niggers they were defining themselves. Racist people are niggers, they are the ignorant ones.
I think its going to take a green or grey alien, for us to stop dividing humans between black and white.Kt
What would my parents do without me
I mean, who would they have to blame?
My parents mistake, but God had planned me
your a mistake too, I didnt get to choose my family
never asked to be born
so i could be used to right your wrongs
to save a relationship void of love
having a kid so you two could finally feel as 1
it didn’t work now u blame me for breaking you apart
how can i be the distance if you never were close?
how can i be the thorn when you never gave her a rose?
if you let it die how can u fault me for the decompose?
I remind myself even blood runs dry
I remember I only need air & water to survive
ugh this is a work in progress, but i think a lot of kids can relate
We are opposites yet we are 1 in the same
I fight a war with my feelings for the peace your love brings me…
sometimes I hate that I love you
crazy in love with you I’m insane & in insane
you can be the best thing thats ever happened
or the worst thing thats never happened
…. ugh i give up its easier to write about pain then love
the only thing I ask God for
everytime I pray
He brings out the devil in me
He must be heaven sent
for his sake
I stay away
I would only kill him
because I love him to death
she was fine the grl was from the projects she had long brown hair
and a body beyond compare she had a boyfriend, drug dealer lol MARIA…
freestyle jus brings me right back to the 80’s
….. yea well me too